" In a man's life, his time is but a moment, his being a mere flux, his senses a dim glimpse, his body food for the worms, and his soul a restless eddy Ethe things of the body pass like a flowing stream; life is a brief sojourn, and one's mark in this world is soon forgotten."
Marcus Aurelius
" Out, out, brief candle! Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player That struts and frets his hour upon the stage And then is heard no more. It is a tale Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, Signifying nothing."
I admit, I am one who likes graphic tee's~~ but not all of them..I get picky. These are the only two I like.
[GOAL]
I never thought this day would come. Atleast not this soon, but I have the need to loose some weight. I've been skinny for most of my life. It was in the middle of junior high when I began to put on some pounds. And now, being a lot more lazier, I'm gaining weight faster than I want it to. My appetite is getting bigger too. I want to eat smaller portions and exercise, but I eat too much and exercising is not really doing anything.
I was all motivated to begin my "quest" for loosing weight until I came across this picture..
One of my favorite songs. Fukai Mori (Deep Forest) by Do As Infinity. From the Inuyasha soundstrack. This song just reminds me of nature. Like the mountains...the fine spring season. Trees blowing in the wind. Driving on the highway in the country. Cows eating grass. XD
This was basically just a random post. Which I often do when I'm cramming work. Weird habit of mine. When I'm busy, I just need to post something up on my xanga. =S
My School (DMCI) will be hosting Keep The Beat. It's a fundraiser for children of war. Click here For details. So basically On May 2, 2006 @ 7-10pm, Other Highschool's in the division (Sisler, St.John's, Tec Voc, etc..) and Dance teams will be performing. Hip-Hop Dancing, Beatboxing, Breakdancing, Competitions, and I believe freestyle..not sure..And A Huge Dance at the end. It Should be really exciting. Not a lot of people at my school is hyped up about it though...Sisler's more excited then us, and we're hosting it. ahah. But I hope It'll be a crazy night~~~~ It's not too late to buy tickets (For those in the division). It's $5 right now, but it'll be $7 at the door. You all probablly have $5 to spare. It's for a worthy cause~. And It should be really exciting~
TODAY: We had morning classes. (Pre-Cal, P.E., Geo). I'm slowly progressing in Pre-Cal. Nothing else.. I got full marks on the last assignment which hopefully brought up my mark. P.E. We went to University of Winnipeg to play racquet ball. Walked with MercyAnne there. There was this lime green sports car that pulled over next to us I think..ahah me and Mercy were like "uhhh...*scared*" ahah. Hopefully he wasn't..=T During the time of our Racquet ball class, there was a Science Fair going on at the University. Junior High's were there. The Racquet ball rooms were viewable. And there were bleachers where the junior kids watched us play..which was a bit embarrassing, account on I haven't played before..It was fun though. We then headed back to school in Ms. Ruby's small car. Sam, Mercyanne, Me, and David, Jon in the front. The four of us were cramped in the back. >.<~~~ ahah it was a bit uncomfortable but we managed. XD
OHH YOU KNOW WHAT WAS STUPID? I ran into the wall in Racquet ball. =.=;;;; ms. ruby was laughing at me. and so was my partner. LOL. IT was quite sad. XDDD
AFTERNOON: Melissa, Kaeser and I went to visit Sisler. At first they were having classes so we just walked around. But it was so hot in there so we went out. We headed to Young's and bought some Fried Chicken for lunch. haha. $5-ish for a dozen wings. Not bad~ Then we walked to my house. Ate lunch. Listened to music. Then we went on the swings at the park at my backyard. and talked for awhile. Then Melissa and Kaeser went up the slide. I was going on at first but I was wearing my slippery converse shoes. XD. And Kaeser and Melissa were like "C'mon MaryAnn! Do it for...him..". lol XP
SISLER Finally saw Beatriz when classes ended. Then Abby. MAN~ been so long since I saw Abby~ She's still pretty as always. Hah. XD. Then saw Al, and Angelo and Roy and Marvic. Rica also~ Then Melissa went with Beatriz, Kaeser went with Rica, I went with no one~ haha. We took the same bus home though. Then I just ran across the field of the park, into the doggy hole in the fence, jumped over my fence. ahaha Just had to get into detail there.
Since I got home, I quickly changed and fell asleep. which was only 4:30. I was running and walking all afternoon so I was pretty tired. umm. Woke up at around 7:45. ahahh I sleep a lot >.<~ Just the other day I went to sleep at 1pm and woke up at 6-7pm. But, I'm an active girl. So I need to rest too..
OH! Good NEWS~ I finished my practice program for Computer Science. FOR ONCE. Geeez~ I'm sooo happy I finally get things.
EDISON CHEN
Is looking major fiiiine in these shots. hehe
LISTENING to Gummy's new Single. ±×´ë µ¹¾Æ¿À¸é (If You Come Back) the Unplugged Version. It's a lot more Soulful and with a R&B sound to it compared to the original version. You can listen to her song on her website.
I'd like to give my room a make over. Maybe make it look like this room..exclude the message being portrayed in it...I don't think my mom would allow that..haha. but that would change the whole thing..hmm. I'll do it when I get my own place. yah~~
Hallelujah procrastination actually discontinues. It's a start to a new beginning.
So I've been basically been wasting my time in computer science class. I knew from the beginning that I wasn't going to get this. And even in the middle of the year I started to tell me self that I would get the hang of this. But It isn't working for me. I don't see myself programming computers in the future. And If I was, then I would just wither up in misery doing something I don't enjoy doing. I'm not good at it either. My tests and assignments have all been failed.
Even if I was good at Computer Science, I find it sooo boring...I hate it. It doesn't bring out any of my talents. I think I'm going to leave programming up to those people who are good at math and can handle long hours of problem solving and unpleasant computer jibber-ish.
Since I have no hope for Computer Science anymore, I went on looking into my old dream..Which was architecture. EXCRUCIATING was the word that came to mind when I looked in on how the whole process on becoming an architect was. Presentations, Projects, Creative thinking. BUT I find that more enjoyable, and somewhat easier because it's what I'm good at. The bad thing is it takes forever to complete. I believe it takes 11 years to fully graduate in the field or architecture..Gosh..longer than studying to be a doctor.
In two years, I'm going to be graduating from high school. Hopefully. But I'm still not sure of what I'll be taking in University. This is so stressful. Add some homework every night to my high school life, and trying to think of what I'd be good at to make my career successful..it's absolutely tiring..Free time is a rare for a dedicated high school student.
HEALTH
I don't know, but I just got sick out of nowhere. I'm suffering from a mild-ish cold. My nose is stuffy. I can't taste my food. I occasionally feel nauseous. Dizzy ness. But that was earlier on in the day.
I went home after lunch because I didn't think I'd last. Plus, next period was Computer Science. I never get my thoughts straight in that class so how was I supposed to think straight with a stuffy head? So, I just went home. I was missing English also but it's okay. I'm doing well in that class anyway's.
My father picked me up. Then I suddenly just broke into conversation about my future.
"Dad, maybe I should just be an architect. You were in drafting, maybe your knowledge will pass down onto me"
My dad was irritated. "You haven't decided on what you're going to choose for a career yet? You're in grade 10. Your time is running out." then I just sat there thinking about how much time I wasted.
"But whatever you choose, you have to work hard and stick with it. Just try your best."
"kung yan ang hilig mo, eh di magiging matagumpay ka. pag hindi , wala kang pag-asa magiging mahirap ang buhay mo"
Sounded something like that. haha I needed kaesers help for this since I can't write tagalog. But yeah, it basically means that "If it's what your good at, then you'll become successful. If not, then there's no hope. You're life will be hard". My dad's advice were always in simple words. Nothing poetic or anything, since he was a logical kind of person. He was more of a math person than a literature person. Makes any sense?? hah..
When I needed theoretical thinking I turned to my grandma. She was full of wisdom and chose words where it'd really make you think. Sometimes I don't even get what she's saying since her vocabulary is so old fashioned. But I learned from that.
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When I got home I took the a bowl. One of the larger ones. Cooked ramen, added rice, ate chicken, chopped up some lettuce, and that was my lunch. all in one big bowl. It was good~...hot and steamy. Made me feel better. Took my medicine. Went to sleep at 1:30pm. Then I woke up at 6:30pm. It was a pretty long ass nap. But I felt really good afterwards.
After awhile, I actually did some homework. Which was productive of me.
It's half past nine now. And I'm just trying to get in touch with myself. Thinking. I think too much about things. It'd be nice if my thoughts would help me out in the near future. I need answers..or more like motivation to get me going.
I honestly become over joyed when I get comments. It's the one thing I check when I go on. To see if anyone's been actually reading my posts. But I hate to have posted up some really random, pointless posts. So those posts have probably been set to private, since I still find some of them of significance.
